Have you ever

Have you ever had something that you can't describe it?

your emotion, your feeling, your passion, your precious, your__________everything

Have you ever been in love ?

every single time you used to think of that person.,

your sweetest smiles always come when that person texting you

your BF, GF,,very bestfriend, or someone you love so much

Have you ever been in jealous?

your ego, your angry became one and you let them controlled you

always fight over something little thing like a little kid that never want to see their mom with some other kid

Have you ever been in guilty?

you realize that all along the big mistake is your missunderstanding

                                       little  mistake is your dishonesty

                                        detail mistake is your pride

and suddenly its getting hard to just face that person face

Have you ever been in regret?

you wrong and you want it back

you would do anything to change atmosphere

to pay your guilty

to clean your sin

even if you know that never give anything back, never back

I had it all.,the experience I can't forget., 

sensation of dillema

the emotion broke out and fight each other.

I'm happy to have that but I forget something important

I never been honest to everything.,

                             to everyone,

                             to my heart, 

                             to myself

Its like I don't want to be honest with_______________ me

I don't want to feel the pain,

I don't want my tears always come all the time

but in the end..thats hurt and make my heart more suffer.

I don't want to Me become so numb

I want my heart always in happy zone and hapiness will be came to me every single time.

but, thats not life

to flat, no challange, no satisfaction

how many a happy song can make a good music, can you count for me?

all I know that good music had a sad song, lyric to tears and the melody can make people dying

so natural that everyone wanting hapines

                     everyone wanting what they want

but God know to make life more enjoyable and more valueable

we must realize it soon..

we must accpet it because the klimaks always the favorite part on movie, right?

thats hard to say  " I;m sorry! "

to hard to say  " Yes I'm wrong"

more hard to say  "Please forgive me!"

until you fell you don't know what you do

you don.t know where you go

what exactly you should do?

what exactly I should do?

I don't know yet, 

But right now,

I throw my pride just to say, " forgive me"

for the sake of real life

would you forgive me, please?